thoughts of the week

Well since I last wrote on this, I have found out that my boyfriends sister is pregnant, so I'm going to be an auntie. How excited am I. Not ready for kids myself but quote happy for others and to do the whole shopping and planning thing with them. So I went out and brought some little booties for 3-6 months and then a baby on board car thing, Alredy!!!

Getting the new wardrobes this week and Internet connected so that's all exciting too. This also calls for 2 days off work which is great. Had to get the radiator removed off the wall at the weekend so its all go at the moment.
Just need to save for a new bed at the moment and then the room will be complete. Need to get rid of a wardrobe, chest of draws and computer from the spare room. After that I have plans to get new table and chairs and new sofa's but there not urgent.

Over the last 2- 3 weeks I have not really felt close with God and Sundays service was quite relevant as it was related to Encountering God. I sat there and thought I haven't really encountered God lately and don't really feel close to him at all. Previous to this everything was going really great and I felt encourage nearly every day by him but not recently. I've even doubted my faith in the last few weeks as I've thought ' is it all worth it' ' can I be arsed' it can be really hard as my partner isn't of faith and so we don't have that connection that I sometimes longed that we had. Don't get me wrong our relationship is great but for example I cant really discuss the above with him as he wouldn't be able to offer the support. Then it dawned on me that the last few weeks I've been leading Alpha and I'm properly getting attacked for that. So after service on Sunday I asked for Prayer so hopefully all will be well. I will try to remember to put on the armour of God each day as well to protect me during this time. I think perhaps I need to continue to make more effort myself as well to read the word, pray and just make more time for God. I dont want not to feel arsed and I dont want to give up on my faith as deep down I know its real and true just been struggling the last few weeks.

On a positive note I was looking through my Diary and I have loads of nice things planned leading up to Christmas so I am looking forward to them.