God Talking

I constantly pray that I will become closer to God and really experience his presence and his changes in my Life. As I look at Christians around me I feel like I have been left behind abit or that maybe I don't put enough effort in to my relationship with God as I don't always feel close to God and wonder why everyone else is having these great GOD experiences.

Since coming back from Ibiza though I just cant get enough of him and the evidence that he appears to be there listening to my every pray is great.

Again I was reading Sacred Space (I love this site now, really make an effort everyday to read it) and today it talked about Luke 5 1-11 where Simon drops everything and follows Jesus. Sacred space suggest to listen to the lord and hear what he is telling you.

I truly think that God is saying to me 'trust me (in the situation I mentioned in last blog) and just drop everything'.

I do find it really difficult to trust in the Lord, not because I doubt him but when I cant make logical sense of how something is going to pans out, or physical evidence of everything being ok then I really struggle. I always pray for God to deal with a situation and then I have to pray for God to give me the ability to trust that he will deal with the situation even if I don't know how he will do that. Quite silly really but again I try and reassure myself by coming back to Proverbs 3 (especially V5)

Also I have stopped smoking in the day now as well. I still smoke but the fags are now just a few a night time and then just when I go out.