Girls Night

Well tonight I've got the girls coming round, which I'm looking forward to. I haven't seen one of them for a few weeks and the other I saw briefly at another mates birthday meal but you know what its like when there loads of people around you don't get a proper chance to catch up.

Still not had a drink so I'm doing well still, could do with applying this self control regarding smoking but one thing at a time.

Went out for my grandad's birthday drinks last night (no alcohol for me) he's in his late 80's now. so he's bit deaf, bit blind, minimal teeth, walking stick but he still all there in the head and he is really funny to listen to when he tells stories of his holidays away or things of the past. Glad he's still around!

So the whole quiet time with God thing went out the window yesterday as I got in from work,
had my tea, got a shower and went out. I don't know if time with God in my car or in bed counts?I am still praying etc but my minds obviously on other things like watching the road or counting sheep.

Being Still

Well you'll be glad to hear that over the weekend I went to my cousins wedding and didn't cave in to having a drink. I managed to go the weekend without. so I'm doing ok so far!
The wedding was really nice and brought a little tear to my eye when they said their vows and again when they had their first dance.

Really bored yesterday, I find Sundays really boring. I get up and go to church, that bits fine. But then Sunday afternoon consists of making Sunday dinner and that's it. We never do anything like go for a walk which I think would be a nice time for me and my boyfriend to just have chats without the tele on and enjoy each others company.
Yesterday I was a bit mopey and didn't know what to do with myself. but then I just thought, I'll go on the sunbed and listen to my Ipod, then run a hot bath and sit in that with a face mask on.
Anyone that knows me knows I go 100 miles an hour and have to be occupied, I hate just sitting still with nothing to do. But yesterday I quite enjoyed just indulging in a bit of me time and it was good cos I did a bit of reflecting on my relationship with God and realised perhaps I could spend some more time just being still with God.

So this is the next challenge, finding more time for God!

From the study we did on Wednesday we looked at a few examples in the bible where it says that Jesus went off on his own and left the disciples and sat and prayed. So maybe I need to take a leaf out of his book and do this too. Then I sat in bed last night and read this from a magazine I picked up from church

Psalm 46 V10

“Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.”

Also since we studied the passage about asking God (mentioned in a previous blog) it has been referred to in a magazine I read and also again in church on Sunday. I think I've go the message now!

Only 18Days til Ibiza!!

Temptation

I have started a diet again and I am trying really hard not to eat bad stuff but 3 times this week at work people have brought cakes in for birthdays etc and I really want one but so far I have managed to resist.

The diet has started again this time due to the fact that I am going away with the girls for a weekend in August to Ibiza. I'm not really big or anything but would be nice just to get back down to the weight I was this time last year. To be fair though today there is a selection of weight watchers cakes so I may indulge in one of them.

I have also suggested that I might not have a alcoholic drink til I go away, which is not like me. I normally enjoy a few drinks when I go out and normally would struggle to sit there drinking soft drinks while everyone else isn't.
But I have discovered non alcoholic beer and think it taste fine. It must be physiological but I don't feel like I'm missing out if I drink that and still have a good night with out having a drink. Also means I can still drive which makes the night cheaper as no taxi's.

Previous to this decision (not drinking) over the last few weeks, I have been moving on to water part way through the night so that I don't get into a mess. Which is a very sensible idea as I usually end up spending the night in the bathroom!

This is something that I have struggled with for a while as I knew that God doesn't like me getting really drunk and yet I thought I enjoyed it so wasn't ready to change that. But I realised that the bit I enjoyed is the bit at the start of the night were I have had a few drinks, but I'm still in control. The bit later in the night were I'm:
wobbling around
feel a bit sick
personality change (I'm quite passive without a drink)
room spins
get sick
sleep in bathroom

I've decided is just not worth it. Therefore I think I'm going to try the no alcohol til Ibiza and then when I get back continue back on the water thing.

1 Corinthians 10 V13
The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.

Baring this in mind, I will continue to look the 'Way out' God gives me and see how easy it is to choose that option.

Confused & Prayer

Well its took me a while but I managed to work out how to get a photo on my Profile.

I really did think I was quite computer literate but lately its appears not. All this Internet stuff is quite complicated. I was obviously born into the wrong generation, as I'm sure kids younger then me wouldn't have any problems created their blog pages.



Last night my church house group come over, I lead and we had a look at prayer and the importance of it. Looked at Matthew 7 :V7-8 where it says:

'Ask, and you will receive; seek, and you will find;knock and the door will be opened to you.For everyone who asks will receive, and anyone who seeks will find and the door will be opened to him who knocks.'

which is just a really encourage passage suggesting just to keep asking God and he will answer. Nice to know!!

We had a prayer session after which was nice as lately pray has been pretty rushed as it always takes place at the end of the night.

First Blog

Quite confusing this creating a blogger page stuff, dead basic template for me until I get a better understanding of what I'm doing.

Got inspired to create my own blog after reading some others. So we'll see how it goes!!!!